omg, my blog's like dead ): i need tags people, even if i dont update!
anyway, i shall post abt everything that's been going on since er, 11th April :/

ELL SCHOLARSHIP INTERVIEW
heh, it was OKAY. i mean it. well, it could've gone alot worst
and it wasn't as bad as i imagined it to be :D
the only problem was that once i came out of the interview
i could not remember ANYTHING that i said :/ oops? STM!

i remember saying that i don't read the papers (I WAS BEING HONEST!)
and they asked me why teenagers nowadays don't read the papers
to which i gave some shitty answer which i don't really wanna discuss :/
WHATEVER, IT IS OVER AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO CHANGE WHAT I DID/SAID
i just hope i get that scholarship cause i really want/need it (:

NOMINEES CAMP
OMG, such a fucking tiring stressful and completely worthwhile camp :D
i mean, it made me feel like shit and cause serious lack of sleep
BUT it was a great experience and i really learned loads
so, even if i don't get into council, i'm glad i went for the camp (:
(but i really do wanna get into council, so please vote? :D)

oh, here comes the first pissing point of the camp.
THE FUCKING SC INTERVIEW WAS ON THE SAME FUCKING DAY AS THE DAMNED ELL INTERVIEW
like, wtf!? but honestly, i think my ELL interview went loads better then SC
the only thing i'm glad of is that they didn't tell me to re-consider running for SC
which i take as a fantabulous sign cause they said that to some people (:

okay, basically, we had to organise our own Finale
including entertainment, food, logistics, prayer and reflection, EVERYTHING.
so, we split into groups and got our proposals rejected like 3 times
before realising that we hadn't even approved the main theme
it was damn screwed up cause everyone started arguing for like 30mins
some fuckers were arguing for the sake of bloody arguing, assholes.
in the end, the thing was settled in under 5mins by Emu. fuck them losers.

all that happened on Friday evening + night. Saturday morning was alright, sorta :/
we had to wake up at like 5AM (slept at 1:30AM) and PT started at 6:15AM.
they made us ran FIVE HUNDRED AND TWENTY ROUNDS as a council
so each person ran abt 11 round each, wtf!? 3.850km. AT 6:15 AM IN THE DAMN MORNING!

yeah well, in the end everything was approved :D but the actual Finale event was bad.
i screwed up my section, Don't Forget the Lyrics, cause the music wouldn't load
and i wasn't a very good emcee ): but it was okay cause everyone helped stall (:

i'm really happy cause i came back with a great experience and many more new friends
now i know even more awesome people in CJC and that makes me feel great :D


Saturday evening/night was not good. i mean, i really didn't expect you to react that way; i thought you'd be happy for us. i still don't understand why you reacted that way, but it doesn't matter anymore. i know you guys talked it out and that you've settled everything between yourselves. honestly, i don't really wanna know what you guys said, all i want is you to come back. please don't go away cause you know that you're really important to me. can't you see that from the fact that we told it to you personally? we could've easily just SMSed you then i wouldn't have had to see your reaction, but we didn't take the easy way out. if we can go back to where we were, can you explain it all to me? please..


i'm really tired, of everything, but i'll make it through (:


I AM SORRY DARREN
FOR MISSING YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTY!
come on man, i've apologised like a gazillion times, can you let it go??
i gave you a huge hug and ate that disgusting cake of yours!
I. AM. SORRY. FORGIVE. ME. PLEASE.
i'll give you another huge hug if you can get your class to vote for me :D
and thanks for being an awesome friend/bro even though i haven't been great to you (:

campaigning starts this fucking friday and i have no idea what shit to do
i mean, group campaign is fine (with Dhillon, Rie and Ben :D)
but i don't know what to put into my individual speech!
and i don't know whether i dare speak in front of everyone :/

what do you guys, as potential voters, want to hear me say?

sorry, i know i've been cursing a lot, but i'm feeling quite pissed and tired so just bare with me