yo, i'm boredd ):

i spent this afternoon watching Bedtime Stories at home
wanted to go out to watch Sherlock Holmes, but was too lazyy :D

People always say that it's what you don't say that counts, bt if you don't listen to what is being said, how do you know what's left unsaid? - KJSHY :D

i couldn't fall asleep last night so i spent my time lying down, thinking.
& every single bitter thought i've had in the past year came back to me

i'm sick and tired of trying to be a friend when my 'friends' keep pushing me aside. it doesn't matter what i CAN do, all that always matters is what YOU cannot do. everytime i tell myself i won't let it bother me, you just do (or don't do) something that brings it right back to the start. i'm sick of having to pick up the pieces and be there for you when you're never there for me. i just don't know you anymore and it's not for the lack of trying. i'm tired of being pushed aside whenever something new comes up, then being blamed for NOT being a friend when i wasn't the one who walked out of the friendship in the first place. i'm sick of pretending to be someone i'm not just to fit in.

oh, there's another thing. me being accused of being tactless when it is me who gets hurt whenever you say something. you have no idea how much i think before actually saying anything. sure, my tongue was sharp at times, but at least i know what i'm doing. you claim that you don't hate anybody, but you manage to space people out of your life so well, even the supposed 'ignorant' people notice.

these past four years in secondary school have been the worst years of my life. i'm not being dramatic. the first two years, i spent my time building up friendships only to have them all pushed aside in the next two years. it doesn't matter that all my older friends tell me that most of the friends i make in secondary school don't stay with me when i go to JC or poly.

i only got one resolution for this New Year: new friends that will stick :D
i won't forget the old ones, the real friends

yes, we broke up. but that doesn't stop us from being friends :D

oh & i'll try my best to be more active in church :D
this means that i WILL go for the kuching missing trip next year
BUT only if there are stairs or i'd die trying to jump so many steps..

3 MORE HOURS TO GO! but in case i fall asleep before midnight
HAPPY 2010! :D
i hope my next 2 years will be better :D