10:34 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
i LOVE my life
can you just like come?! even if it's just to keep me company? you know, it definitely wont be like tt stupid crappy Metamorphosis concert. this one will have standards. it'll definitely be worth it lorrhs. anyway, if i can accompany you for all de stuff u ask me to, why cant u accompany me jus this once? it's not as if i'm asking the world right?! this is only 2hrs in the aftnoon. then, you can go do all de other stuff you want. hmpf. and just cos i keep askin you you call that blackmail!? u ganged up with ur entire debate team to get me to go to tt debate! you have absolutely no idea how much this means to me. just beacuse u had ur bad experiences im supposed to feel just like you and hate kids. yea, right. i feel sooo damn good. hmpf. could i at least get a tag? i spend the whole day doing everything but my own stuff. even on the computer using photoshop, im not doing it for myself. i cant even relax without someone breathing down my neck to do their stuff. why cant you jus keep them as they come?! why the hell do you hafta wait 2months b4 asking someone else to do it!? and, yea, i feel so appreciated. $10 and tt's wad i get. a so-called thank you and a argument. great. just great. and just because i dont complain to others about my homely state, it make everything perfect, huh? so what if you have your own room? at wad costs? when do i ever get to enjoy havin the room to myself?! 1st, it's de computer and the small iidiot tt some attached. then, it's the maid and her friggin' alarm. HELLO! i want my own space. i want to be left alone sometimes! when i finally sit down to do my own things i afta get up again. why? just because she got a job, suddenly everything is my responsibility right? and, yea, I have absolutely no social life huh? i dun ask for it openly, so tt means tt i dun wan my own space. hello! i didnt ask for it. why does everything gotta be me? you got at least 2 other people at home at all times and you just hafta ask me right? like, yea, sec3 is soooo relaxing. i can sleep all day and get straight As. no, dont worry. absolutely no effort is involved at all. see, because,I dont put in effort for everything that i do. I always do things halfway, huh? leave them hanging, for someone else to clean up my messes right? hmpf. i sooo wonder what i have been doing for the past 15years of my life. i get no presents from anyone in the family at all, and you complain about me not gettin anything for the ungrateful iidiot. so damn appreciated. yea, i feel it. when i dun show my other emotions, tt makes me insensitive. when i dun show tears and emo-ness it makes me detached. life is great. so damn friggin' fair. and, yea. i didnt use vulgarities, happy? so, just because i express my feelings differently, it make me some friggin' bitch. hmpf. and just beacuse i can behave indifferently, doesnt mean tt i dun stuggle with my own confidence sometimes, you know. you can do things i will never dream of trying. i would never dare say what i actually want. and if you honestly must know, i would have said something like chairperson.